God has called me to sing. It's the most fulfilling, miraculous, and joyful thing He could have ever asked me to do. Singing is the joy of my life; Jesus is the joy of my life. God has asked me to go forth with that, to pursue my heart's desires.
Now that I know this, it's hard to believe I didn't always know this. When I wrote the song "Songbird," I was just beginning to learn what God's calling on my life was. I was always a singer, since I could talk, and I was always a songwriter, since I could sing. But I never really considered it to be something I could seriously pursue.
I wrote "Songbird" in July 2017. I really loved it because I felt like it was the words God was singing over me...I had no idea how serious He was though. God was calling me a "songbird" but I didn't realize right away that it wasn't just a nice symbol to think about but something to embody.
I wrote many songs in the year 2017 but I wasn't planning on letting anyone listen to them, much less "Songbird." Then I had the idea one day to make a little homemade album. I bought some blank CD's, asked my sister to take polaroids of me, and I recorded all my songs using voice memos on my iPhone. As I was making the set list for the album "Songbird" stood out, it had to be the title. The song was about my self-inflicted captivity and fear contrasted against God's call to be free. So the story of the album became about my battle with insecurity; the story of the album became about freedom.
It was in the year 2017 I learned how free I was to sing and to be who I was created to be. It was in the year 2017 God released me from the cage I built for myself and I started calling myself what I am: a songbird.
Fear and insecurity are always there still...but the more I have surrendered to God, He has made me bolder and stronger... and at the risk of being cheesy and taking the songbird metaphor too far: He is teaching me how to fly.
This album that was meant for only a few friends and family is yours now. I plan to give a little insight into each of these original songs you'll find on the album: "Victory Song," "Surrender," "All I Have," "The Storm," and "Resurrection Day." I know the recordings aren't quality but as I am pursuing God's calling on my life I must use what I have. Greater things are yet to come.